Nothing to you

Hey!!! It's almost christmas,who's excited?? (not me) My nails look great,which is good,my hair doesn't look bad either,but just the thought of spending 5 hours + with my family and receiving almost no gifts (my beautiful family only gives gifts to the small children) - and the ones I receive could just go to garbage right away- doesn't let me be happy with my nails and hair. 
Talking about being happy, I'll say something about this lyric: I'm not depressed,ok?? I wrote it a few weeks ago and when I read it now I was like: OMFG, WTF was wrong with me??What a depressive train wreck!! But I got my shit together and I'm fine now (it's reflecting on my nails and hair). So, here's the lyric:

Nothing to you

Even though it hurts me to see it this way
Although sometimes you make it look like it isn't this way
I'm almost sure that the truth
Is that I mean nothing to you

The way you look at me

Makes it look like you care

But the way you act

Makes me wonder: how you dare?

You make me so confused

And my confusion makes you amused

Maybe that's the way you see me

Just a little toy that gives you some glee

(chorus)

It's sad but truth

I mean nothing to you

The saddest part is

You are everything to me

And the same way that for you I'm nothing

For me you're everything

Why did you make me believe

I meant something to you

As you go away, the scars you leave

Show that I like you more than I should

How could I be so stupid to believe

That you'd change for me

That I meant more than the other girls

But for you I mean nothing

Just like the other girls

(chorus)