Dealing with never

Never... To some people it's just a word, they have no idea of how it's dealing with it. It hurts.
I think we never really accept the meaning of this word, you remember something happy that happened in your live thinking it had the chance to happen again, but then you remember it can't, it's impossible, it will never happen again. The thought is overwhelming, "how come I'll never live that again? It's just past and it isn't going to repeat? What?". I know that it sounds stupid, but when you have the happiest memories ever, you get off reality and you forget there's no such a thing as a time machine to go back in time. And it hurts.
Why couldn't the time have stopped where it was and let us all be happy? Life isn't like that. And when you realize that you're NEVER going to live that again you crash. It's like you have something empty inside your chest and just remembering what you had  will never fulfill you.
 You never know what never means until you're living it. Not even knowing that sometime soon "never" will be in your life gives you a hint of how it feels like.
So enjoy every single moment of your life to its best, you never know when it's going to end and when you never will be able to do something again. You desperately want to go back in time, but you can't. You have to accept it's just a memory. The time has gone by.... that's never gone happen again. Do you have any idea of how much it hurts?

PS: I miss you

Grammy's Fashion - or whatever it was

Hi dolls!! I know it's been a week since the Grammy's and this is a blog about lyrics, but I just feel an urge to talk about it (and Grammy's and lyrics are about music,so this isn't such a different subject). Watching the red carpet I could notice that a lot of people were high. L.A must have gotten a good weed a couple of days before it...Let's get to the "high"-fashion (did u get it? haha I'm awesome...ok..no).

First I'm gonna start with the big winner of the night: Adele. She looks perfect!! This dress is amazing for her (made by Giorgio Armani) and her hair and make up look flawless, but I'd like to see her wearing something younger and more cheerful, after all she's only 23.

 I'm absolutely in love with this dress that Giuliana Rancic wore. The dress is amazing and the sandals (by Jimmy Choo) go perfectly with the dress. Seriously, I want this look for me.

Rihanna wore a Armani dress that she helped design. It looks good, I'm not going to lie, but it looks more whoreish than good. But it's Rihanna and if she's not dressed like a whore she isn't herself. My biggest problem with her is the hair. WTF were you on when you decided to go with that hair???? It's effing awful!! The black roots and this messy hair messed with me.

Kelly Osbourne's dress is amazing!! I loved it!! Not loving that weird hair though...

Fergie's dress is something...interesting. If anyone saw the lace up close you could notice that it's the most amazing lace ever! And I think we all agree that if this dress wasn't sheer it would be one of the most beautiful gowns of the night. That was not the case though. The bitch wore it with black bra and panties (just like on the runway) and it looked weird, like really weird. My biggest problem is that have you ever imagined how much does this lace cost?? It must be really expensive and mr. Jean Paul wasted it doing something terrible. But kudos for her for having the balls to wear that.

Taylor Swift wearing Zuhair Murad. This dress is nice, but not for her. Although this dress has a XIX century feeling, it's pretty, but Taylor looks really old wearing it, especially with that hair. Girl, you gotta learn to dress for your age!! And when I mean "dress for your age" I'm not talking about those florals i'm-just-a-little-girl dresses you love, I'm talking about something sexier and more age appropriate for a 22-year-old.

Shocking moment: Katy Perry wearing something normal that doesn't show her boobs and a ton of skin!!! It's shocking and it's a happy moment, but this dress isn't ideal for hear. This dress by Elie Saab is really pretty, though it looks old for her. And what's up with this match of the old lady dress with the blue hair??

Anne Vyalitsyna, we get you're a Victoria's Secret and have a great body, but do you really need to show up at the grammy's wearing something that looks like you just came from the beach?? That's exactly what your dress looks like. You were chilling at the beach and then you remembered : "oh,I gotts go to the grammy's", so you just put you sarong around part of you, put on a pair of heels and went. This one was clearly high.

PS: Adam levine you look hot.

Now let's go for the tragic side of the night starting with Lady gaga.
The only thing I have to say about this is that the bitch has ran out of ideas. And not walking the red carpet was really rude.

I guess Russians still hate Americans...and I have no idea how Sasha Gradiva went through the airport security with that. The dress she's wearing is really, really, really pretty, but those guns up your arms just scream: attention whore!!!! 

This one is probably the most fucked up dress of the night, not by the dress itself (which is already terrible) , but by the fact that is the second time Nadeea wears it for the same award show!!
This one she wore in 2010.

And this year she added a sparkly bra and a puffier skirt, but it's the exact same dress!!

Now what I'm gonna say i wish people like Katy perry, Ke$ha, Lady gaga and specially Nicki Minaj could read. Lady gaga's fans would never admit it, but she wouldn't be half of what she's now if it wasn't her weird fashion that makes people pay attention to her. Her music is no big deal so she wears weird outfits to make sure people will talk about her. Katy perry and Ke$ha did the same, because they know they're not talented as artists. Both Katy Perry and Ke$ha have terrible lyrics and a terrible voice, so they also use fashion as a strategy to have succes. And then came Nicki Minaj. I'm not really into rap, so I only guess she's talented, but doing the same thing the others did just say copy-cat and attention whore. And Nicki Minaj's outfit for the Grammy's was simply ridiculous and everyone could see that she was tryin to hard to make people pay attention to her.

 X.O.X.O

Run Away

Run Away

I'm attached to invisible chains
But they hurt me like steel ones
Living in so much pain
24/7 under the fire of guns
Only walls can hear me scream
And all they do is laugh at me
I wanna wake up from this horrible dream
Can't someone  let me free?

  I wanna run away to where the sky is bright
Where in the end I can see a light
Down my way
I wanna run away

(chorus)
I need to run away
There's no way I can stay
I feel that I won't be able to breath
Unless that I leave
For far far away
I'm running away

Agony fulfill my veins

When I think I'm stuck here
Someone please release me from these chains
So I can disappear
One day I wanna open my eyes
And see that all this was just a horrible dream
There's no more need to cry
I won't follow the stream

I wanna run away to where the sky is bright
Where in the end I can see a light
Down my way
I wanna run away

(chorus)

I've got nothing to loose

And so much to win

There's no excuse

Let the sweet escape begin

I wanna run away

For far far away

(chorus)

Hurting me

Hurting Me

I may pretend I don't care

With what you do

But I'm pretty aware

Of everything you do

I have to pretend

To spare me

Because in the end

You're hurting me

(chorus)
The smile is just a façade
I don't want you to see what's going on inside
I don't wanna look vulnerable, not near you
I don't wanna show you how much my love grew

'Cause you'll only hurt me more

And I don't think I can take it anymore

I didn't mean what I said

No, my love isn't ovr like I said

I was only protect myself

Although I've guarded myself

My outside is strong and I'm lying

Since inside is weak and I'm crying

Would you look me in the eyes?

You were the one who stabbed me with the knife

(chorus)

Can you hear my silent crying?

Something inside me is dying

Can you see my invisible tears?

Can you notice that you made true my worst fear?

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

Hey people!! Even though I'm not in a Christmas spirit I won't be rude and don't wish you you all a merry Christmas. Merry Christmas and I wish you and your family to be very happy and get a lot of gifts :) To celebrate it, I made a parody of Justin Bieber's Mistletoe and I hope you like it :D
Warning: Don't read it if you're a Justin Bieber fan.

Mistletoe

It's the most beautiful time of the year
Lights fill the streets spreading so much cheer
I should be playing in the winter snow
But Imma be under the mistletoe.

The lyric of this song is so gay

And the screaming girls are a disgrace

'Cause I’m gay and you know

And Imma be under the mistletoe

With you, Johny, with you

With you, Greg with

With you, under the mistletoe

My a-hole is on fire

Nuts are exactly what I like
I should be hiding it of my folks
But I can’t keep it under control

Word on the streets Santa's coming tonight
Reindeer flying thru the sky so high
But I was naughty with Bob,you know
and  Imma be under the mistletoe.

With you, George with you     

With you, Rick with you

With you,under the mistletoe

With you, Lucas with you

With you, Ted with you

With you, under the mistletoe

Hey Love,the hot men followed a star

One of them conquered my heart

And it led me to a miracle

Hey Ross don’t you buy me nothing

‘Cause I am feeling one thing

Your lips on my lips

That’s a merry merry christmas

It’s the most beautiful time of the year

News fill the world that I’m such a queer

But that everyone already know

As I have consistently shown

I’ve always been gay

But only now I’ve started to embrace

I should be playing with some hoe

But Imma be under the mistletoe

 With you, Joe with you

With you, Nick with you

With you, under the mistletoe

With you, Kevin with you                  

With you, Franckie with you

With you, under the mistletoe

 

Kiss me underneath the mistletoe

Show me Max that you Love me so
oh oh oh oh
Kiss me underneath the mistletoe
Show me John that you love me so

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nothing to you

Hey!!! It's almost christmas,who's excited?? (not me) My nails look great,which is good,my hair doesn't look bad either,but just the thought of spending 5 hours + with my family and receiving almost no gifts (my beautiful family only gives gifts to the small children) - and the ones I receive could just go to garbage right away- doesn't let me be happy with my nails and hair. 
Talking about being happy, I'll say something about this lyric: I'm not depressed,ok?? I wrote it a few weeks ago and when I read it now I was like: OMFG, WTF was wrong with me??What a depressive train wreck!! But I got my shit together and I'm fine now (it's reflecting on my nails and hair). So, here's the lyric:

Nothing to you

Even though it hurts me to see it this way
Although sometimes you make it look like it isn't this way
I'm almost sure that the truth
Is that I mean nothing to you

The way you look at me

Makes it look like you care

But the way you act

Makes me wonder: how you dare?

You make me so confused

And my confusion makes you amused

Maybe that's the way you see me

Just a little toy that gives you some glee

(chorus)

It's sad but truth

I mean nothing to you

The saddest part is

You are everything to me

And the same way that for you I'm nothing

For me you're everything

Why did you make me believe

I meant something to you

As you go away, the scars you leave

Show that I like you more than I should

How could I be so stupid to believe

That you'd change for me

That I meant more than the other girls

But for you I mean nothing

Just like the other girls

(chorus) 

  

I miss you

Hey people!! What's up?? I know I haven't been around in a long time, I was just...well...I don't have an excuse :/ I was just not in the mood for posting, although I had written 509390848373473278 lyrics. here's one of them:

I miss you
 
I still remember the look in your eyes
When you saw me coming
I miss the way you'd smile
At the first sight of me coming

I remember you'd whisper in my ears to give me chills
I miss you whispering in my ears
Willing to give me chills

(chorus)
I remember all we had because I miss it
All I want to ask is: do you also miss it?
I miss everything we had
Can't we get it back?
I miss you
Do you miss me too?

I remember how you used to be eager to meet me
I miss how you used to be eager to meet
I remember the way you used to kiss me
I miss you kissing me

I miss the way you cared about me
I remember you used to care about me
With you is where I wanna be

(chorus)

Can you look straight in my eyes and say

that you don't miss the way i'd whisper in your ears

Willing to give you chills

That you don't remember when I wiped your tears

That I was the one who helped you climb that hill

Can you really say to me

That you don't remember being eager to meet me

That you don't remember smiling at me

And that you don't miss all of this?