Never... To some people it's just a word, they have no idea of how it's dealing with it. It hurts.
I think we never really accept the meaning of this word, you remember something happy that happened in your live thinking it had the chance to happen again, but then you remember it can't, it's impossible, it will never happen again. The thought is overwhelming, "how come I'll never live that again? It's just past and it isn't going to repeat? What?". I know that it sounds stupid, but when you have the happiest memories ever, you get off reality and you forget there's no such a thing as a time machine to go back in time. And it hurts.
Why couldn't the time have stopped where it was and let us all be happy? Life isn't like that. And when you realize that you're NEVER going to live that again you crash. It's like you have something empty inside your chest and just remembering what you had will never fulfill you.
You never know what never means until you're living it. Not even knowing that sometime soon "never" will be in your life gives you a hint of how it feels like.
So enjoy every single moment of your life to its best, you never know when it's going to end and when you never will be able to do something again. You desperately want to go back in time, but you can't. You have to accept it's just a memory. The time has gone by.... that's never gone happen again. Do you have any idea of how much it hurts?
PS: I miss you
